Khushbu Sundar opens up on battling depression; says she wanted to end it all

The death of Bollywood actor Sushant Singh Rajput has started a conversation around mental health. Several people have been taking to social media to share their personal experience with depression. On Monday, senior actress Khushbu Sundar also took to Twitter to open up about dealing with depression in her own life and how she even considered ending everything.

“Everyone goes through upheaval and depression. I would be lying if I say I haven’t. I did and wanted to end all. But I fought the demons in my head bcoz I wanted to prove I am stronger than them. Stronger than those who wanted to fail me. Stronger than those who waited for my end,” she wrote.

Everyone goes through upheaval n depression. I would be lying if I say I haven’t. I did and wanted to end all. But I fought the demons in my head bcoz I wanted to prove I am stronger than them. Stronger than those who wanted to fail me. Stronger than those who waited for my end.

— KhushbuSundar ❤️ (@khushsundar) June 15, 2020

She further described how that phase of her life felt. “I couldn’t see the end of the tunnel. It was dark and scary. Or I loved wearing a blindfold as I was selfish not to see the problems. Thought easiest way would be to sleep, forever. But my grit pulled me through. My friends were my angels.”

Life came to a standstill at one point n I couldn’t see the end of the tunnel. It was dark n scary. Or I loved wearing a blindfold as I was selfish not to see the problems. Thought easiest way would be to sleep, forever. But my grit pulled me through. My friends were my angels.

— KhushbuSundar ❤️ (@khushsundar) June 15, 2020

“Why let go what I had,my precious life, to someone who played in my mind,scaring me n pushing me into a a dark deep unseen pit? I struggled to see the silver lining,a ray of light, a hope,a chance? Why should I let all go away is what I said to myself n came back. And here I am,” she added.

Why let go what I had,my precious life, to someone who played in my mind,scaring me n pushing me into a a dark deep unseen pit? I struggled to see the silver lining,a ray of light, a hope,a chance? Why should I let all go away is what I said to myself n came back. And here I am.

— KhushbuSundar ❤️ (@khushsundar) June 15, 2020

“I do not fear failure. I do not fear dark. I do not fear unknown force. I know I have come this far bcoz I had the guts to fight back. To wear my courage on my sleeves. To learn to turn every failure into success. To be able to jump over the hurdles and sprint to my winning point,” Khushbu concluded.

I do not fear failure. I do not fear dark. I do not fear unknown force. I know I have come this far bcoz I had the guts to fight back. To wear my courage on my sleeves. To learn to turn every failure into success. To be able to jump over the hurdles n sprint to my winning point.

— KhushbuSundar ❤️ (@khushsundar) June 15, 2020

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